I always wanted to camouflage, hide my breasts, because I was ashamed.
Accepting my body has always been a challenge. Growing up with images of Victoria's Secret models or even Garage models, one easily develops complexes.
My breasts developed super early. So early that others thought I was stuffing myself. I managed to keep a DD until my late teens. But, it was really in my mid-twenties that things got worse. I remember having a panic attack in a mall because I couldn't find a bra for an event the next day.
Often I think to myself that I should have my breasts removed and move on. But, I remind myself that my body is not the problem.
I stopped wearing turtlenecks because I thought my breasts were showing too much. I don't wear clothes that are too low-cut otherwise people think I'm too sexy. I always wanted to camouflage, hide my breasts, because I was ashamed.
Often I think to myself that I should have my breasts removed and move on. But, I remind myself that my body is not the problem. The problem is that the fashion industry has no flexibility when it comes to curves. The "fit model" in the industry is a size 4 and a B cup, while the average women's cup is 34 DD.
You have big big boobs, lucky guys like it.
In addition, breasts are still a taboo subject. You have small breasts, lucky you. You have big big boobs, lucky guys like it. (This sentence, it has been repeated to me too often…) We don't talk about the complexity that it brings. There's a lack of education on how to measure up, where to shop, or how to feel good with big breasts. A statistic that comes up often is that 80% of women don't know their bra size. It's quite serious. One should have been educated to love and take care of one's body as it is.
For over a year, I've been learning. I'm learning to shop for the right bras. I am learning to measure myself. I'm learning to take my bra off at night, at home and even when going to the grocery store. I learn to love my breasts when they get swollen during my period or when I think they're huge.
I decided to create this project for women like me who rush to accept their large breasts. I want to create beautiful clothes that we can finally wear without asking twenty thousand questions about our bodies.
* Photos not published, because my breasts seem too huge